Thursday, February 21, 2019

Coffee Chat: It's been more than a year but hello darlings...

It's February 20th 2019 and it's been more than a year since I updated the blog. Which there are many reasons for the main one being that 2018 for me involved being sick listed more than I worked due to my mental health along with a crap load of harsh (and very painful) chronic shit. And I am going to leave that part at that. Because I have been dealing with this daily for a few years now (not my first rodeo but probably my worst so far) and I still am dealing with this every day so I don't want to spend my first post in almost a year writing about it, you know? I hope you can understand and respect this choice. I am the same meeting people, which is why I hate running into people, because they are curious you know, for the reason that they care. But I don't want to spend time talking about this shit then either because once again, this is my daily life right now and a break is damn nice to be had.

This break wasn't planned. I did plan to take a week off social media and the online life for a week. Which turned into a year. Because my blog isn't the only part of my online surroundings that went dark. But I do miss it, a lot. I just felt like I couldn't just jump back into blogging like nothing happened hence this post. Which is also a good way to start off a new blog post series which I've named Coffee Chat!

Coffee Chat will basically be me jumping in writing a post on anything that I feel like out of the blue, while having myself a cup of jo. It can be about life stuff but also random thoughts or things I've discovered has helped me in some way that I want to pass on. It can be anything I damn want, nice huh?

As I mentioned I've spent my most time away being sick listed and I still am as I write this. My current full time sick listing is this month out and honestly with my slow progress...I have a feeling my doctor is going to want to extend that. But I hope that maybe I can start working again maybe 25% but we'll see.

Another big ass change is that as of the last of February I will no longer be an employee at my job. This is a decision that I've had to make for a long time. Because no matter how much I love that job and the people I've worked with for these 7 years it's not good for me. I am way to isolated and with my current migraine problems sitting in front of a screen 8 hours for 5 days a week...It doesn't work. It is very heartbreaking but in the long wrong it will be the right choice and it is the right choice now as well. But I'd lie if I said I wasn't terrified and lost, my work became such a big part of who I was and still am so yeah, I better buckle up and hold on tight.

Ok so this is a long post and a whole more bunch of words that what you're used to. But hey, it's been a year and a lot has happened. And there are some things that I just...It needs to be out there. If you have any questions or worries please be free to ask them because I am willing to answer and if not, I will just say so.

Please know that I have family and close friends who have an eye on me, that are there for me. And I do have a team of professionals helping me as well so even if it's a damn fucking chaos, it is a controlled damn fucking chaos. So my life is shit but it could have been worse, I am not alone and I know everything will work out in the end. I just need to fight my way there.

If you made it all the way down here, thank you for reading this massive post and send me a hi! I have missed ya'll so damn much! How are you? What's going on in your life? What's new?

Friday, December 1, 2017

Loki Collection by Her Universe

KNEEL FOR THE BEAUTIFUL CLOTHING COLLECTION FOR LOKI! I am in LOVE. I want the dress, I want the top, I want the damn leather jacket and have you seen that cape? Yes please!
Loki is for sure one of my favorite characters in the Marvel verses. And I love the version Tom Hiddleston potrays of him. It may not show that much online but honestly I got so many favorites in so many fandoms that many sadly gets robbed of their moment in the nerdy spotlight. I mean even if you hate him you can't deny he is a stylish fucker in the live action movies.

Friday, September 1, 2017

TV Shows Tag

I stumbled upon this tag over on Kayley Hyde's YouTube channel and decided to have a go at it! Some of these questions can be filled into an eternity but I decided to do my best to keep it some what short so there for some (well many) favs in different areas will be missing.

  1. Favorite Shows?
    Woooooooow...WOW...Ok I am going to try and not use up all of my post space for this question...
    Walking Dead, Supernatural, Game of Thrones, Z Nation, Hannibal, True Blood, Heroes, Lost, Firefly, Hemlock Grove, OZ, Buffy The Vampire Slayer, Angel, Scream, Daredevil, Arrow, DC Legends of Tomorrow, The Flash, Black Sails, The 100, Dexter, The Expanse, Teen Wolf...I'm gonna stop now but yes I have more.

  2. Favorite Genre?
    Horror and Sci-Fi. If they are mixed in a pretty nerdy ball it's even better.

  3. Least Favorite Show?
    But I don't watch shows if I'm not 11000% in love...

  4. Most Rewatched Show/Favorite Show To Binge Watch?
    Gilmore Girls and Hannibal. I watch both on a regular basis. I've rewatched Hannibal 10 times this year already...I may have an addiction. And Gilmore Girls has been on loop ever since I bought the box many years ago.

  5. Do You Prefer Watching Things Week-By-Week or Binge-Watching?
    If it's a show I'm re-watching then the only way to go is Binge-Watch. I got my routines down for that one. And I'm real slow to check shows out so it always starts with a binge-watch.
    If it's a show that's still airing (for example Walking Dead) I prefer it week-by-week. It's a huge motivation for me every week and I know I'll get a nerdy fix that day. So I get torn to say the least when Netflix releases a whole season with some of their shows.

  6. Favorite Television Characters?
    I just got hit my a million fangirl feels in a split second haha...I have my darlings in each fandoms but here's a few:
    Castiel, Papa Winchester, Crowley, Lucifer and Dean (Supernatural).
    Negan, Daryl & Rick (Walking Dead).
    Jon, Daenerys & Arya (Game of Thrones).
    Spike (Buffy The Vampire Slayer).
    Alcide, Eric Northman, Sookie (True Blood).

  7. Favorite Television Ships?
    Luke and Lorelai (Gilmore Girls).
    Buffy and Spike (Buffy The Vampire Slayer).
    Angel and Cordelia (Angel).Rick and Michonne (Walking Dead).
    Hannibal and Will (Hannibal).
    Eric and Sookie (True Blood).

  8. Show You Could Never Get Into?
    I honestly can't think of one. I've been a fangirl my whole life meaning I know what I'll enjoy and what I won't so 10 out of 10 shows I check out I do watch. It's more common I fall out of love with one for different reasons as the show progress.

  9. Show You Fell Out of Love With?
    Vampire Diaries. I was in love up over my ears for seasons with this show but then I just hit kind of a "meh" level. And I've tried rewatching it more than once and the same thing happens.

  10. Cancelled Too Soon?
    Firefly!!! I will never forgive you FOX, NEVER!

  11. Guilty Pleasure Show?
    I watch a lot of shows but none is a guilty pleasure. That's what I love about fangirling, there's always a crew of all fandoms out there :)

  12. What Are You Currently Watching?
    As of right now since most of my shows are on hold it's all about Game of Thrones, yes I'm behind hush now. I am also currently watching The Mist, Outcast, Damien, The Defenders and also thinking about rewatching Lost.

I would love it if you linked me if you jump on this tag!
To get it started I'm tagging the lovelies: Tania, Cassie, Angela and Ashleigh!

Saturday, August 26, 2017

6 Nerdy Quotes That I Adore

Have you ever watched or gamed something and all of the sudden for whatever reason at the time there is this certain quote that just etches into your damn mind, your very heart and soul. You fall in love with this quote. You know what I mean? I got a ton of quotes that I carry with me and many of them are of course nerdy. Here's six nerdy quotes that I adore.

What are some of your favorite quotes?
I'd love to hear them! Maybe I'll find a few new good ones.

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

The Harry Potter Tag

I was tagged by Cassie who has revamped The Harry Potter tag! I also got tagged by the lovely Tania so a shout out to her too, read her answers over here.

I am a huge HUGE Harry Potter fan and the perks of being in my age is that I did grow up with the books and movies while they were still being released and written/made. I was smacked in the middle (happily so) in the Harry Potter era.

1. What house are you in?
I have always been a Slytherin. I became obsessed with that house straight away and every test I have ever taken through out the years has put me in Slytherin.

2. What is your patronus?
I've always believed mine to be either a wolf or a cat.
But I took a test and turns out it's a Granian Winged Horse. Which I ain't gonna lie, pretty badass.

3. What is your wand?
10 inches, Blackthorn wood, Dragon heartstring.

4. What would your boggart be?
Either something symbolizing my trypophobia or a massive graveyard with all of my loved ones on the tomb stones.

5. What position would you play in Quidditch?
Probably a beater, especially in my younger years. I had a lot of anger issues I could've used back then and I could channel into it being older as well.

6. Would you be a pure blood, half blood or muggle born?
Well considering the size of my family, meaning relatives like cousins, aunts & uncles etc there's bound to be a mix so half blood.

7. What job would you want after to have after graduating Hogwarts?
With the animal life they have in that world I would work with animals. Either studying dragons or unicorns. Or mythical creatures in general across the world. Imagine to get the chance to travel around documenting their life and photograph them. Dream mode on...

8. Which of the deathly hallows would you choose?
The invisibility cloak. That would be real handy when my social anxiety hits!

9. Favorite book?
Prisoner of Azkaban. Sirius and Remus arrives and that is all I need, baby.

10. Least favorite book?
I'll have to go with the first two. Not for any super negative reason but I've outgrown them I suppose one could say.

11. Favorite film?
But I love them all! I'll have to go with The Half-Blood Prince because if I just jump in watching only one (which always leads me to watching them all anyway hehe) I always choose that one.

12. Least favorite film?
Same here like with the least favorite book.

13. Favorite character?
Sirius Black. I have loved that character since he arrived in the books, even before you learn the truth about him.

14. Least favorite/most hated character?
Now there is a person who I would allow to meet my more aggressive and love-to-fight younger self...

15. Favorite teacher at Hogwarts?
Remus Lupin. I can just see myself loving his classes and favorizing him as a teacher. I'd aim for teachers pet there hehe. eheheheeeeeee.

16. Least favorite teacher at Hogwarts?
Umbridge...My fire burns with hate for that bitch.

17. Do you have any unpopular opinions about the series?
I think the most unpopular opinion with me is that I love Fenrir Greyback. Which roots back to Sabretooth from X-men being a childhood (and still is) favorite. Greyback reminds me a lot of Sabretooth and I don't mean the Liev Schreiber version in Wolverine. I've always been very weird even as a child, ok...

18. If you could save one character from the finale battle who would you save?
ONLY ONE?!?! Can I use the time-turner and save more while the other me's save others?