This year so far (well since October last year) has been harsh. I'm not saying it's worse than anyone else but it is my life and it has been difficult mixed with health problems and other personal problems which has left me with very little energy. So I've had more than one mental breakdown.
I'm just...really, really unhappy right now. I've struggled with depression etc for most part of my life and I've had more than one bad turn in my life because of it. But right now it's worse than it's ever been and I'm thanking my lucky star that I have a therapist since a few years back that can help me.
This very moment I keep all around me at a distance and am letting no one near me. Because a lot of things I've worked on, fought to break, when it comes to myself are back to square one. But also, and mostly, because I need time to just pick up the pieces of myself and see a good road to take in life.
Which is why I've fallen off the face of earth because I'm in too much pain to hardly do anything and being the person that I am I put the very little energy I have left towards work. Because in many ways it feels like the only thing I have left is my job.
I'm not writing this to get attention, neither am I writing this to get sympathy. I am writing this because I have followers since years back and I know that you worry. Also I'm hoping that if I take the cat out of the bag it will be easier to update the blog because it's been an anxious task due to me knowing that you don't know how bad things have been and how much worse they are right now.
I hope that you all are doing well, my darlings.
Stay Strong & Always Keep Fighting.